Hey.
It's been a while.
Too long, in fact. So long, who even reads this?
Who knows.
So, what's been new? That's pretty complicated. A scary and lonely experience. Some highs, some lows. And such is life.
I'm still in New Jersey. Some opportunities came may way to pull me out. Kansas. I let them go. It didn't feel right. I'm currently job searching to make my way back to North Carolina. Virginia, even. Nothing has come of it, but I'm hopeful.
I have to take a step back from counseling because of my current job. A lot is changing and as a result, I need to refocus to give my attention to my main role. And I hate it. I love some of it, but most of it does not align with my passion.
I'm working on pursuing my passions. Board games. Podcasts. Drawing. Reading. Sometimes I'm successful, sometimes I stumble. And such is life.
I miss North Carolina. I don't hold much against Christina, but on nights like these, I really resent her for my move to New Jersey. It's been nothing but horrid. But then I sigh and laugh, because every choice is the choice of an individual. And I didn't have to. I chose to. Out of it I met some really great people. I have the best pup, laying across my lap. I've had some great relationships. And such is life.
You know how you close your eyes and picture a scene so serene, a lifestyle you so desperately long for? You know the feeling of purpose that grows within you, to pursue those goals, that lifestyle, what you were meant to do in the place you were meant to be, potentially with the person you were meant to be with? North Carolina, I'm coming for you. And such is life.
As miserable and alone as I feel, I also balance this with the love I have for humans, for animals, for opportunities, for life's little chances that make their presence known. I'm not the best person, I'm quite terrible. I have said and done some terrible things. In the past, in the present, in the future. And I know there is good that has been done, and that needs to be done. Aren't we all on that path for righteousness and growth? Say it with me y'all, such is life.
2019 is a rough year. A terrible year. Let's see where we go from here.
9:47 p.m. - 2019-08-20
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